Lawson writes . . . sharing thoughts and memories

August 18, 2010

Scary and Unexplained

Filed under: Uncategorized — lawsonjolly @ 5:00 am

Two really scary times in my boyhood, I recall.  And there was no explanation . . . !

A Saturday morning I was in the house alone.  Everyone else was in the yard.  I heard the biggest crash in the house I had ever heard.  I didn’t know if  a chandelier had fallen or a mirror, but I heard glass breaking . . . and it was clear to me that it was a big object.

I ran downstairs to investigate.  I was probably fearful that something had happened . . . and it was my fault!  I ran to the front hallway where I thought the sound had come from.  Everything was in place.  I searched the rooms and found nothing broken.  Then it overwhelmed me . . . there is something in this house!  I became extremely frightened!  I knew I had distinctly heard the big crash and that it was inside the house.  Yet no evidence!  I ran out of the front door and over to the neighbor’s yard.  Free of my own yard, I looked for family.  They were in the garden.  I hastened to be near them.  Perhaps I was out of breath when I approached, but they asked nothing . . . and I said nothing.

But to this day . . .  that crash occurred!  It scared me.  And what bothered me most was that I could not explain it.  With nothing broken in the house, no one would have believed me if I had told them.  “Your imagination,” they would have said.  No, I did not imagine it, but I cannot explain it.

A couple of years later when I was in the fourth grade, I was invited to a friend’s house to play, along with two other friends.  This friend lived across the highway from the front side of Stone Mountain.  We began to play in the woods and soon in a big open field.  We spotted this old barn in the field.  As explorers, we were ready to investigate it.

“No, we cannot,” explained our host.  “It is full of ghosts and it is haunted.”  That is about all you need to say to a bunch of fourth graders.  There is the excitement of adventure . . . and the fear of the unknown.  We began to ask questions about the barn.  Our friend explained that no one ever goes there.  He told us that they could be watching us!  I think he convinced us it was haunted.  So we hid ourselves in the tall grass and watched for any signs of movement.  We would be ghost hunters from a distance!

While we waited . . . we joked about it, of course.  We also would have moments that we felt we might be in danger!  Amazing how our minds can jump around in such situations.  I don’t remember how long we waited and watched, but I do remember . . . oh, yes, I remember!

Suddenly the two big barn doors opened!  We stared at each other.  One hollered, “They’re coming after us!”  We tried to calm him and tell him to be quiet.  With our eyes fixed on the doors . . . out walked a white mule!  Now, he could have been gray, but if you are expecting a ghost, it had to be white!

As that mule came out of the door, two of our friends hightailed it out of there!  My other friend and I stayed low.  I don’t know if we were being brave . . . or just too scared to run!  “Do you really think it is a mule?” we asked each other.  “Maybe it is a ghost mule. It has got to be real — we all saw it!”

When that mule turned his head back toward the barn . . .  shazzam!  We were both out of there!  We were scared to death! As the expression goes!

Now, I know the mule was real . . . I don’t really believe ghosts lived there and fed the mule, but who opened the barn doors?  And why did the mule come out at that precise time?  Questions!  Questions!  Many things can happen and we cannot explain!

It is that way in my life.  There are events, situations, sicknesses, and many other things that come in my life and scare me.  Part of being scared is that I cannot explain them.  I cannot explain the why; I cannot explain how; I cannot understand.

It such moments I have to turn to my Heavenly Father.  I don’t get all the answers I want, but I do get the counseling I need.  His response causes me to trust Him!

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.  As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”  (Isaiah 55:8,9)  “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”  (Isaiah 41:10)   



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